1. Me
2. N
Watak Konda -Kondi
1. B - Sidekick 1
2. C - Sidekick 2
3. D- N's love fantasy
4. E - my childhood friend
Background History:
N presented with acute on chronic un-reciprocal love-relationship with D. She already gone through the 5-stages of Bereavement multiple times but all attempts ends up to relapse stage.
Precipitant:
For the xxth time D told N that they will never end up together.
PMHx: nil. Not on any Rx from healthcare proffessional.
Meds: nil regular + NKDA
Social Hx: nil smoking+ETOH+drugs. IADL
HOPC:
Stage 1:-
For the latest 5 stages of bereavement, N was very active update her feeling via FB & Twitter. The content was all around the relationship and childish feeling with helpless and hopeless theme.The Twitter was more severe than FB.
I have a chat with D telling him that I almost give up to support her after I noticed that she didn't take any advice. (Masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri!)
D told me to hang on there and make N realize that
Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum, sebelum kaum itu berjuang keras untuk mengubah nasibnya sendiri” (Surah ar-Raad :11)
Since my 9-weeks psychiatric rotation haven't prepared me so-well to face the real word, I decide to Block N TEMPORARILY in Twitter. I just need space to breath in and breath out. After a long hour of working in hospital, reading a melancholic twit doesn't rejuvenate my soul after all. Imagine, if this become a routine?
Stage 2:-
N realised that I blocked her in Twitter. N make a report to E. N did send me an e-mail through FB. I explained to N that its not her fault. IT'S JUST ME! I need time and space for keeping me ventilate.
After a short-while, as E was concern about the situation, E and me have a chat. It ends up that E also have the same opinion as me. Since E and me knew N pretty well than others, E decide to have a word with N. This in intention to protect N. Both of us afraid that otherS will also getting annoyed with N actions.
Result: N decide to deactivate her FB's account and make her blog private. [ I respect her decision]
Stage 3:-
A few of N's sidekicks realised that N haven't been on FB and notice that she closed her FB account.
I assume B was kind and asked N. B came out with a shout out some sort of this on B's status
" Bukankan status FB adalah apa yang ada dalam fikiran kita. Kalo rasa annoyed x yahlah baca..yadda yadda"
p/s: x sempat copy sonce B delete the post!
Being a naive, I commented on the status without realising that it was intended for me!
I have this principle, FB is like a public place, so you just update your status once or twice a day. If you think you like to update every 10 minutes such as
Morning peep!
After 10 minutes
Nak mandi la...
After 10 minutes
Ni kalo pekena nasi lemak untuk breakfast best ni. What say u?
so on and so on...
Better buat kt Twitter la...its people decide to follow whats on your mind after all...
To make this story more dramaic...D also commented on the status.
adalah hak anda untuk menyatakan pendirian anda,juga adalah hak orang lain untuk menyatakan pendirian mereka. kesemua pihak perlu di ambil kira bila perkara umum adalah perkaranya.
bila satu ruang di kongsi bersama (maknanya ramai pihak guna), anda tidak lah boleh buat ikut suka..nnti ada pihak akan terasa. atau pesanan ringkas saya,tinggalah di dalam gua..di situ tiada sesiapa pun nk kata..
maka di sini lah letaknya peranan aqal saudari saudara.bukan hanya peranan rasa semata mata..fikir sebelum berkata kata..maka tak salah la ungkapan mereka yng lama lama..terlajak perahu boleh di undur,terlajak kata buruk padahnya..berapa ramai makhluk manusia ke neraka, bukan kerana murtad atau apa,tp hanya kerana ingin cakap apa mereka rasa..jk tersa akan kata2 saya,ubah la seadanya..sekian ceramah dr saya..jk ada masa,silalah ikuti lg di lain ketika..heheh..peace no war!!! =p"
E started to get annoyed bila sidekick lelebih dari empunya badan. I opt untuk diam je after that even my liver start to get cirrhosis...
Stage 4:
Next, C plak buat this shout out on the day I want to say Hello to N!
boleh xaku nak mrh for those yg kononnye mgelar kononnye mgelar diri sorg 'kawan' pastu xde pun ble kwn memerlukan?isaid this on behalf of my sis.she never asked tp aku xbleh tima sbb aku sbgai adik pun xwat mcmtu.dia da delete akaun fb.puas hati?????????????????
Reading this shout, I can have STROKE in the liver. A lot of PENUMBRA area ok!
Myself:
I'm sinking down..almost DROWNING! Worst than the incidence of my broke-up.
When the least unexpected persons draw a conclusion that I'm a bad person as a friend..and shout it loudly via FB....its like a DEATH SENTENCE!
They didn't know the whole story from both side , just pop-up out of nowhere and decide to become MARTYR out of blue.
I opt to remain SILENCE to the utmost as far as I could.
Since my emotional override my rational, I opt to deactivate my FB. This to avoid thus prevent myself becoming a monster of all kind of BITCH.
Does this people realised that I do make an INTERNATIONAL CALL at 4.00 am (MORNING) when N had a crisis? Which i'm supposed to sleep to be able to do 7.00 am WARD ROUND!!!
Does this people knew that I keep my friends in my du'a after prayer?
I got a paragraph dedicated for my friends...
those who will sit for an exam
those yg mencari job
those yg mencari jodoh
those yg getting pregnant
those yg x lama lagi akan melahirkan baby
yadda yadda
I pray that Allah will ease everything!
Nevertheless, they are a just a sample of population..a small proportion I perhaps! So, this is just insignificant result.
And here, I still believe that there are gazillions of gorgeous and beautiful peoples on this earth...
Holla holla handsome and pretty people!
Keep on moving babe...
p/s: Thank you to www.tableeight.com.au that make me SANE eventhough for a while...
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